7/07/2007 12:00:00 AM
the feeling comes again.
friday, 6th July a day after graduation ceremony day
today met up with lihui. for lunch supposedly. went to laminate my graduation cert. missed them. i finished eating before she replied me with her around me but i still never see her. later i got to know she is there at 1240, i am there at 1230 when i left to go to the track there de bench to use my lappie.
lappie, haha a word i cannot remember who use it. == laptop.
later msg her. but my phone spoil, still no sound. so sad. as in, put earpiece got sound. then no earpiece == no sound.
a sudden msg from her asking me to eat with her. then later she say too many people. so i headed to library. she went too. then we later talk for a while. or maybe less than that. she went off for class. i sat there, feeling a bit sweaty and smelly to speak. i try to configured the network using the password she gave me, cannot access. played dota. tapped people's network. no chance.
waited for her to come back. was about to msg her when she arrived.
we talked for a while, before she set off to go to meet her friends to go to a concert. cool. 3 guys and she alone. but i think her classmate won't really take advantage of her bah. make fun of her though. nice people i can see. draw thirty bucks. gave lihui ten for her phone top-up card.
together we went on the train. they went down at newton. me at city hall. i chatted with her throughout.
at city hall, my dear mei say she will be late. indeed, later i found out to be about an hour or more. i walked to raffles city to go to robinsons, then to suntec city nokia care centre. walking randomly. never see any familiar faces. called mj, sms tan jason about shiming's birthday bash.
then a call came and tabitha is at new york new york. i headed there and was glad everyone is there. but somehow a feeling got onto me. i feel down!
why? why am i feeling that way? cos i don't know. i think it is because of my relationship with her once before. sad. i am not feeling happy at all. she is giving me the sian look. she looked beautiful in my eyes. maybe she still appeal to me. but we cannot go back in time that is for sure.
seeing max and tabitha so lovey-bird. i feel no emotion.
feelings then... i feel regretful to lihui. at that specific point in time.
i know she is thinking of me then. i wanted her to come. i wanted libing to forget herself.
i ordered long island salmon, vanilla milk shake. == $16.90, $6.90 respectively.
we later had the sugar candy. too sweet for me. service tax is at 10% and 7%.
$86.27
we paid and went off to play pool.
max is in ns now. he booked out. take cert, have dinner with my mei. tabitha.
i am glad. at the occasion, or rather a sense of relief, finally can get everyone there.
i kind of know why tabitha does not invite elson, she must have her reason. well not for me to know. but i am just happy.
mrt to somerset. cineleisure there. my workplace; john little specialist centre. we took the train. crowded. tab n max hugged together. i held on to libing. adrenaline, hormones reaction started. it had been some time i felt this. the rush, the blood to the veins.
played k-pool at cine. 9.45pm later tab n max go pa tuo, watch movie.
me and libing go walk walk. drink water. yeah. in the end. past by jl sc. we go to plaza singapura and go home.
i smsed lihui, the moment i stepped out of cine. i felt the rush again. libing puts her body weight and shoulder against me. she wants someone to feel her. i wanted to devour her right then. but i had lihui in my minds. i should not do anything like such. but i cannot stand it. and i offered my arm as a hand, over her shoulder. i nearly touch her under, but resisted. i dare not.
on my right hand, i was smsing my lihui, to wait for me at mrt station. and i was flirting with her. i feel so pervert. but it wasn't long each time i had my hands on her shoulder. soon, we reached the traffic light.
i got lihui to wait for me at the train. i was there soon after. i went carrefore, too many people. i could not buy a drink. i fired my way to the nel station, after settling her to the bus-stop. i went off.
as i walked down the escalator, i sms lihui. she called me instead. i picked it up and went down.i was glad i was able to see her. got a seat, told her about my schedule tomorrow. was glad.
took the train, chatted some more. she is feeling tired. but when she sees me, i had her concentrate on me. she does want to stay as best as she could in front of me. i told her i will get her a proper birthday present for her soon. i know where to get the gift.
i sent her home, to her block. she went up the lift. i walked away, towards home.
walking walking. sweat all along. no small breezes, none. sms suhael. ask him why specialist centre still there. not close yet.
preparing for tomorrow.
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